7:11:00 PM Monday, November 26, 2007
Today, I did not attend class. I woke up around 6.30am but I still feel that I did not have enough sleep. I went back to sleep cos my alarm is 7am. Alarm rang, still feeling sleepy and grumpy. I don’t feel like going to school. I smsed Hubby good morning and told him I don’t feel like going to school. He asked ‘why?’, I told him I just got this weird feeling, should not use the word weird, should use mixed feeling.
In the end, I smsed May and Ke Ying, if they are going to sch. Both of them told me they r not going to school. Just nice, Hubby yesterday told me that this week he will be very busy so I don’t wish to disturb him working. I feel like sms-ing him but I don’t dare to sms him. Don’t know where to go, what to do. I was under my void-deck typing so-called reflection journal.
Every kids now are having school holiday while I have another 2 more weeks then my holidays start. And my holiday only last about 2 weeks. SOOOOO PATHETIC!!! What should I do now? Asked every person that I so-called close with but none of them r free. Except May and Ke Ying who ponned school today. Ke Ying wants to go Orchard to see sth so im not sure if im gg with her cos im feeling very bored. Don’t want to spend so much money and im waiting to c if my dad goes to work. If he goes to work, im able to put my stuff at home n go out. Don’t want to bring so many things to go out.I did not go anywhere in the end cos i feel so lazy, bored.. i dont know. Stayed until 12 plus, i decided to go home. Instead of taking the lift, i used the stairs to reached 7th storey. Before that, i called home asking if my mum cooks. I got home, i had my lunch and i went to slp. I felt so tired just now that i just feel like taking a nap. Woke up at 2 plus, went back to slp, woke up at 4 plus 5. He messaged me while im aslp. He closed a small case, n i told him 'good for u!'. Until now, he still have not reply my sms. Felt fresh after the nap. Life is quite stagnant, i should say. Btw, he had adopted a 'i-dont-care' attitude. Is it good or not good? I dont know. I only know, in future, he wont care if im going to sch or not, as long as i complete my dip. I guess im a trouble to him. I depend on him too much, i should learn to b independent.